Put up your guard unless you’ve never even put it down at all. Some of us were conditioned to expect just a little better. Some of us base everything off doubt. Because all I do is complain in my head while I take long drives from point A with no B just to see my way right out of here to the home I wish I had, something more than four walls to surround myself. I’m always looking for excuses to leave. I’m always short of something or got someplace to be, or sometimes just a change of scenery so maybe in a week I’ll come crawling back. Have you ever pretended that everything was better than it seems? Yeah, take it from me man, I’ve always got a lot to say. But instead I just talk too much, fake a smile, and try to catch up. Because small talk’s not exactly small, it’s a day to day transcript between beautifully flawed strangers regardless of who knows who. Sometimes I don’t feel like I know anyone at all. Because identities are trite, and names are gibberish. Still, I’m so glad that we’re acquainted. And I’m sorry if I forget to say goodbye. I’m always in a rush to leave, even if I’ve got not place to be.
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